I'm takin' it all back to
The start of everything I knew
Before my mind collapsed
Before my heart relapsed
Here we are I'll admit
It's not everything I wanted
Knock it back to kill the pain
Doesn't ease the suffering

You know it's killin' me
But you can't seem to see
What you're doing here
It's not your fault
But it's not fair
But nothing ever is

And even though it really hurts
I'm trying not to think the worst
I need to get past my selfishness
And wish for just your happiness
Here we are I'll admit
It's a lot harder than I thought it
I escape to my fantasies
But nothing eases the suffering

And right now I'll admit
I should be a conduit